Mikey D

I was reminiscing this morning and reading some of my old writings from my old blogs. I came across this old blog entry June 21st, 2005, almost two years ago, and I couldn't stop smiling after I read it...

"So this morning I was in the shower, getting all soaped up (don't worry, this isn't going where you might think it is...dirty bitches), when I had a mini-epiphony. The reason I cannot make decisions about my life is because I am not ready to make them yet. Here I am trying to decide my future and what I am going to do with my life, and I am incapable of making that decision right now. Well I shouldn't say incapable. I could make choices, they just might not be the right ones. You know what I mean. I'm just not ready! So what's the best thing for me to do right now then? Options. Have lots and lots of options. Bingo. The more options I have, the better. I don't want to give up on teaching, or anything else in my life for that matter. I just don't want to close any doors right now. With that in my mind, I want to explore a little. I do not think I am going to do my internship this coming fall. Instead I want to work a little. Beaners has treated me well, and I enjoy what I do there. I want to substitute teach a bit. It really helped Larissa want to be a teacher, and I'm hoping it will do the same for me. I want to get back into coaching tennis again, and I think I'm going to volunteer at the YMCA or something comparable to help with their programs. After a semester away from school, who knows, I may want to take some more classes, perhaps in a psychology (I've always been interested in becoming a school guidance counselor...). I want to go to career fairs, like this one for teaching in the Chicago school district, just to see what the job market is like and what is expected of me. If I decide that I want to teach in Michigan, I will do my internship next year. No hurry. This seems like the best plan to me. Instead of forcing myself to make decisions now, I will wait until I am ready to make them, and do things that will hopefully make me more ready."

In those two years:
~I worked at Beaner's for six more months while I "figured things out".
~I substitute taught...and worked at Sylvan Learning Center and Kindercare.
~I helped out with the Everett girl's tennis team.
~I got a membership at the YMCA (that's just like volunteering, right?).
~I went back to school a year later...and did my teaching internship =).
~I went to two career fairs.
~I stood in line for the Chicago School District at one career fair- and ended up with a job in Baltimore County.

"Instead of forcing myself to make decisions now, I will wait until I am ready to make them, and do things that will hopefully make me more ready."

I'm ready now. Let's do this mother fucker called life.

~Mikey D